amor

So in time we are faced with storms

but you’re always there to calm the waters

chasing all the bad days away

holding me close and looking at me

with a look I have seen before

Hoping this would last for a lifetime

I give you my heart

but please don’t break it

This love should weather the storm

never to falter

to be written in a book

never to fade away

just you and me here

waking up to the sound of birds singing

and the look you gave
one I have see many times before!!!

cursed hows

I just read book, a fantasy tale about a young woman who accidentally discovers she has the ability to tap into energy and channel it to change the weather and create all kinds of chaos. Naturally, she is targeted by evil forces, and must go on a hero’s journey to find herself, save her people, discover what it all means, and become the person she is meant to be.Part of the journey involves a purification ritual, so she can clear her mind and better see where she must go and how to best use her growing talents. And like most attempts at getting clear, it gives her some answers, but leaves many more unresolved questions. We literally dive into life headfirst when we are born. It’s a bumpy ride from there on out. Life never turns out exactly as we expect it to, does it? Sometimes it’s much less, sometimes much more, and usually it’s quite different than we imagined it would be. When we try too hard to find answers, sometimes we miss the ones that are right under our noses. Intuition often works best when we aren’t trying too hard, when we stop trying to figure out the “cursed hows” As children, we start out with a lot of questions, many of them quite intuitive. As we grow up, we think we have all the answers, which we have the worlds to figure out … only to discover later that we don’t! Being willing to not have all the answers, to ask more questions, and to allow them to be unresolved, stirs the beginnings of a deeper wisdom and understanding. The intuitive part of your mind loves those unresolved questions like the ones our young heroes must face, because they lead us to our next creations, to growth and change, to new beginnings.

December rain

It was raining hard when I left the bar late night.A fairly long and warm summer, the endless summer had finally arrived with the first rain of the season. I paused and contemplated for a moment by the door…it’s uncomfortable to get wet.I started walking, I could feel the big drops on my head. But after the initial discomfort and chill, it actually felt good. As a friend said, “some people just get wet, others feel it.” I felt it, and it was good. Walking in the rain late night in the quiet streets of Christchurch, a city that I love. I was in the moment. I felt present, a moment of clarity and content. Then I had a revelation. I couldn’t remember the last time I had really walked in the rain — one of those simple pleasures in life (though it may be uncomfortable or inconvenient) that I hardly make time for; or even if I do, I hardly notice it because my mind is wandering about so many other things. I had to check and see if the 1000 Awesome Things had anything about walking in the rain. Not exactly but there is plenty about rain — its sound, smell and getting caught in the rain. Close enough. Well it’s time to take notice and enjoy such simple moments in life. We have limited time here, some of us more so than others. Don’t waste your precious time on regrets and complaints.

my way.

I think there's a difference between Loneliness & being Alone. I prefer to be Alone yet I am not Lonely. Sometimes I am uncomfortable around people. If I was missing someone or wanting another company then I'd be lonely. By being alone I can let my mind wander where ever it chooses. I don't have to come up with some small talk to ease the silence. I can talk to myself as often as I choose, which I do anyway whether or not people are around. I think there's nothing wrong with someone who enjoys being alone. It's also possible to be alone while in the company of another. That too can be enjoyable. To be together enjoying the silence with one another.

mad mind

I am having depressions.
Anxiety.
My vision is getting worse everyday.

And one day,I can no longer see.

I will try to be happy.
I will try to share my happiness.
I will try to forget those bitterness moments.

I will try my best to be useful
I will try to be less irritating.
I will try to be restrictive of my actions.
I will try to smile.
I will try to sacrifice my pride.

This life is no longer a game to me.
It's a purpose I was given.

Some may say I am exaggerating.
Maybe I am.
But you don't see the ugly truth.
The truth behind how life revolves.
How society works.
And how to fit in one.
And the people in it.

Don't you know how cruel this is.
To live in this life.
Why don't you try to be understanding for once?
Put yourself in my shoe for once.

To live a life.
By having people staring you.
As if you are from some other planet.
Sometimes I'm even worse than you.
But you don't see it.
Because you didn't spare a thought.

I don't blame you.
All I want is a little sympathy.

I may smile.
But does that show happiness?
No.
It's like a needle in a haystack.
That's what happiness means to me.

The probability of finding it is so low.
That sometimes I even want to give up.

Maybe I should.
I'm sick of putting my life with this kind of...

And it will only be a matter of time.

Oh..God !! again!

All of you might have heard about the news on Japan.It's a misfortune. An earthquake of 8.9 magnitude of the Richter scale hit Japan causing tsunamis once more.Within radius,the tsunami began to overcome with its massive force. Sendai,Japan was the first to hit as it was near to the harbor.There are several videos that people took even if their life was at stake. And today,there was a nuclear meltdown. So what's a meltdown? A meltdown is overheating of the nuclear core causing the core to melt which allow radiation of nuclear activity into the atmosphere. It's like one after the other. And why should we worry? Because many lives are lost. Homeless. Lost their jobs. Their effort. A family. And yet they are still in danger.Why? Seismic activity would last a few days or maybe one-two weeks the most. And there are some that might feel tremors. Due to these activity,tsunami would still be a threat to the people on land. And the aftermath is just the beginning. It would take few days or weeks before the water is back to the sea. Communication lines are cut. Injuries status unknown Medical personnel are restricted. And casualties would receive treatment not even on time. There are some that are missing. Some trapped. Some could be safe and some could not. There are others that would feel mentally stressed about the whole situation. Many lives are at stake. Shortages of food. The lack of proper sanitation. Ohh Ohh Ohh .. and I pray I just cant sleep tonight. Knowing that things aint right. Its in the papers, its on the tv, its everywhere that I go. Children are crying. Soldiers are dying Some people don't have a home But I know there's sunshine behind that rain I know there's good times behind that pain, hey Can you tell me how I can make a change I close my eyes and I can see a better day I close my eyes and pray I close my eyes and I can see a better day I close my eyes and pray I lose my appetite, knowing kids starve tonight. And when I sit up, cause my dinner is still on my plate. Ooo I got a vision, to make a difference. And its starting today. Cause I know there's sunshine behind that rain I know there's good times behind that pain, hey Haven`t tell me how I can make a change I close my eyes and I can see a better day I close my eyes and pray I close my eyes and I can see a better day I close my eyes and pray For the broken-hearted. I pray for the life not started I pray for all the ones not breathing. I pray for all the souls in need. I pray. Can you give em one today. I just cant sleep tonight Can someone tell how to make a change? I close my eyes and I can see a better day I close my eyes and pray I close my eyes and I can see a better day I close my eyes and I pray I pray .. I close my eyes and pray .. Entitled "Pray"

My Regrets

It could be I felt the meaning of the song. And I was able to relate it to myself. I used to tell myself that it was okay. Everything's gonna be alright. Someone will protect you. But it's a lie. And who am I kidding. I keep thinking that this is a fairytale And I will have a happy ending. The fact that I'm trying to avoid is. Nobody just wants me. Because I'm way too imperfect. It's painful to admit your mistakes. Mistakes do make us stronger. Sometimes when you keep repeating the same mistake,we will just get tired. And feel like giving up. Even misunderstandings.I tried my best to phrase my words but in the end it will lead to misunderstandings.And everything will turn sour. Wouldn't the person that made the misunderstandings feel guilty? And I just want to fix it. What have I done? I wish I could run Away from this ship goin' under Just tryin' to help, hurt everyone Now I feel the weight of the world is On my shoulders What can you do when your good isn't good enough? When all that you touch tumbles down? 'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things I just wanna fix it somehow But how many it times will it take? Oh, how many times will it take for me? To get it right To get it ri-igh-ight Can I start again with my faith shaken? 'Cause I can't go back and undo this I just have to stay and face my mistakes But if I get stronger and wiser I'll get through this What can you do when your good isn't good enough? When all that you touch tumbles down? 'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things I just wanna fix it somehow But how many it times will it take? Oh, how many times will it take for me? To get it right To get it ri-igh-ight So I throw up my fist I will punch in the air And accept the truth that sometimes life isn't fair Yeah, I'll send out a wish Yeah, I'll send up a prayer And finally, someone will see How much I care! What can you do when your good isn't good enough? When all that you touch tumbles down? 'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things I just wanna fix it somehow But how many it times will it take? Oh, how many times will it take for me? To get it right To get it ri-igh-ight